Yesterday I finally broke down in front of my mom. It was on the way home after school. At lunch Kassie told me to tell Yung and Brandi to go Fuck themselves, and I did. I was once again stuck in a situation that I didn't want to be in, because Cjandis was to chicken too. I'm always stuck doing those things because I have a reputation around my friends as a peacekeeper, but I'm damn sick and tired of that. In the car, I was telling my mom about what has been going on lately, and how I feel about it, I was trying my hardest not to cry, but I ended up doing it anyway. When we got home, mom told me to just crawl into bed, and cry if I needed to. And thats what I did. Until Kassie called anyway.
When I got on the computer later that night, I got an IM from my friend Juan, who always comes to me for advice, and help. He told me that the girl that he had a crush on and his best friend at the time were going out, and he needed someone to talk to. After about a half hour of giving advice, he said that he felt better, and that I was the first person that he told that too. It made me think. I have friends that have troubles in their lifes, and I'm normally the one that people come to. They know that I will give them advice, and not joke around about it. My friends know how much they mean to me, but I never really knew about how much I meant to Juan until then. He said that I was a great friend to him in his time of need. I'm like that to most people. But I don't really know who it is for me.
My family life is calming down again, so now I can focus on the problems that my friends have. I like to have more guy friends than girl friends because guys don't fight over the stupid small things. There are times, I'll admit, take I just want to leave my friends in the middle of a conversation about a fight, or when they are actually fighting. I have done it once. The resluts weren't pretty. So now I feel as though I have to be there, and the I am permentally labeled peacekeeper, as long as I'm friends with girls. I'm okay with being therapist, but peacekeeper is a hard job once you quit believing in peace.
There are many things that a girl shouldn't talk about in front of a guy. There are also the same for guys. I have friends that are offenders of that taboo. (I'm looking at you Ben...) They obviously don't care, or don't know the rules of taboo. So I made this up last night while I was trying to get to sleep, thats when i get my best ideas. So here I go on my rant:
What girls should never talk about in front of a guy:
Going to the bathroom
Hygine (or however you spell that...)
Boobs and other frilly things
getting pregant
babies ( unless in family, then okay)
Butts (how big or lack of)
Shoe and fashion talk
The pharse ' omg ' in a preppy tone ( ex. like omg!!)
What boys should never talk about in front of girls:
Urinal talk (thats a nice shaft you have...)
farts, burps, and other bodly noises ( unless really good friends with the girl and shes cool with it, like me sometimes!)
Your collections (ex. Do you speak Klingon??? Or Wookie???")
Telling about other girls that you kissed
Victora's Secret (Isn't much of a secret anymore...)
Notice I didn't put down one of the most important taboos of all? That's because it's what I call the universal taboo. and it's sex. Yes, I said it. Sex. You know why I say that? Because it's a weird postion for both genders to be in... I MEAN BEFORE NOT DURING BEN!!! You don't just go up to your girlfriend and say, " Hows about we go back to my mom's 2-room apartment for some fun while she cooks dinner?" You don't do that. You would get slappped, and a milkshake shoved down your throat, while wondering, " What did I say? And where did that milkshake come from?" It's just one of those things that you never talk about, NEVER!!! It's one of those things that you only talk about in health class, or in college.
And with that, I bid you, adiu.
